Hello and Welcome,
I’m So Happy That Life Has Crossed Our Paths.
What a journey it has been for each one of us, to get to this amazing moment of planetary awakening.
Like you, my path has been long and winding, and has required deep courage and fortitude to find my way to bring forth from deep inside of me, that which I wish to create, experience and celebrate in this precious life.
I was born a highly sensitive being, with the innate ability to feel and experience what was going on in the inner landscape of those around me. I developed the ability of running other family members’ emotions through my system to create more coherence and emotional safety around me.
I believe I chose the early experiences I had, to catalyze me onto a path of dedicating my life to learning a tremendous amount about spiritual, emotional, mental and physical healing.
Due to internalizing the reflections I received from the external world into the belief that something must be wrong with me, I went into a ‘decade of numbing’ from ages 15–25, and my soul went underground, binge drinking alcohol and using recreational drugs on the weekends.
I was still able to maintain my grades at school and a bright external demeanor, as I began sifting through the books I found in the personal development section of the bookstore in earnest, seeking some kind of answers.
in my late teens people began saying that I should be a model, and this idea kindled the spark in me: of an ‘exit strategy’ to a timeline that could be much more interesting and enjoyable than the one i had been living.
I moved to Los Angeles and suddenly so many doors began opening up for me. I began modeling, doing music videos, TV commercials and going to A-List celebrity clubs and Hollywood Hills house parties many nights each week.
I was blown away by all the acknowledgement and attention that was coming my way, it felt life-affirming, like a much-welcomed breath of fresh air for someone whose sense of self-worth had become fragmented and externally oriented.
I ended up modeling in several countries in Europe and getting an inside glimpse into the lifestyles of some of the wealthiest people on the planet.
But my self-destructive patterns with dieting and using substances were not sustainable, and I could feel the unintegrated trauma vibrating inside of me like a ticking time-bomb.
a series of potent ‘wake up calls’ from the universe led me to a radically life-changing spiritual awakening.
i closed my bank account, gave away all of my possessions, shaved my head, cut up my id, and set off on a spiritual pilgrimage that lasted 5 years.
i ended up walking over 350 miles on my pilgrimage, visiting sacred sites, intentional communities, ashrams, shamans and spiritual teachers.
The path of living on a self-directed vision quest, studying the world’s wisdom traditions and healing arts went on for several years, and included hitch-hiking over 20,000 miles across North America and Mexico. Throughout my journey, my deep desire and guiding light was to learn to reconnect with the wisdom and cycles of mother earth, and to meet the wayshowers on the planet who had insights and guidance to share for this planetary paradigm shift.
In order to focus fully on my path I chose to live as a renunciant for several years. I gave away what little money I had left, stopped using technology and offered everything up on the altar to the Divine. I stepped back from participation in conventional society for several years.
Along the path I would often sleep outside under the stars, on bales of hay, on the earth, in tree branches, on picnic tables behind churches, on rooftops of apartment buildings and many other creative spots!
Eventually I stayed for longer periods of time in meditation communities, ashrams, temples, retreat centers and even a retreat cave dug into the foothills of the Ortiz mountains in New Mexico.
I traveled tens of thousands of miles to sit with spiritual teachers including the Dalai Lama, Ammachi, Tenzin Palmo, Jack Kornfield, A.H Almaas, Mother Meera, Sri Ma, Baba Hari Das, Tsoknyi Rinpoche, Benki Piyako, Michael Beckwith, Neil Donald Walsh, Marianne Williamson and many others...
my unwavering devotion on my path became
to get free, and to share that freedom with others.
I was so inspired by all that I was learning, but I was also deeply lonely and living very much as a ‘lone wolf’, as I hadn’t met many others who could relate to the unusual lifestyle I had chosen, and no one I knew was living in a similar way.
That felt very, very isolating and yet I knew that I was on the path I was meant to be on. I sometimes experienced such profound satori moments, undeniable synchronicities and an overwhelmingly beautiful feeling of ecstatic connection to the unified field of all of life.
To maintain my safety, my connection to my inner guidance, clairsentience and intuition became extremely heightened and I experienced a number of profoundly moving mystical dreams and would also sometimes hear the voices of my guides.
During this time I had a compelling calling to do long solo retreats out in the wilderness.
I had been studying the lives of saints, sages and mystics for many years and I knew in my heart that each one of us, as our birthright, has the capacity to directly connect with Divine wisdom and higher guidance.
i was dedicated to
re-accessing my connection to Source so that I could support others in doing
the same.
For several years, any chance I got, I would go out alone into wilderness preservations across the US, Mexico and Canada for several days at a time, to meditate and be with nature.
I met one of my beloved mentors, named Wind, and he taught me everything I needed to know about living in the wilderness and interacting with wildlife.
Over these years I developed a special connection with wild animals, and deep love for them, and was so touched by the many beautiful encounters I had out in the wilderness with a variety of creatures that are often deemed dangerous.
Eventually, I went on two 20 day solo retreats, two years in a row.
The first one was in a ‘hogan’ (traditional Native American mud hut) in the desert of Northern New Mexico, and the second was deep in the Gila Wilderness, somewhere that I wouldn’t see or hear another human or anything other than wild nature for the duration of my retreat.
One of Wind’s friends helped me pack up my supplies on a donkey and find a beautiful and completely secluded place out in The Gila Wilderness.
He took me to my retreat spot in the wilderness and I hiked out 3 weeks later. The retreat was an answered prayer for me.
during these two exquisitely beautiful 20- day solo wilderness retreats, I found the deep connection to Great Spirit I had always been looking for.
The next phase of the journey required the cultivation of tremendous patience, humility and deep self-compassion.
That was the path of embodying my awakening, integrating and resolving trauma, feeling and healing heavy emotions, and rewriting old limiting beliefs that had held me back from truly thriving in my life and being able to live the life I knew I came here for.
By Grace, I continued to meet incredible teachers, guides and allies that supported me tremendously throughout the various stages of healing, integration and eventually finding my voice and stepping into leadership.
the time of living as a ‘lone wolf’ on my path was over, and it became time to fully re-enter the world and share the gifts i had so whole-heartedly cultivated.
In 2010 I became one of the co-founding members of the Goddess Temple of Ashland, Oregon. The following year, my writings began getting published in magazines: I wrote about consciousness evolution, personal and collective wellness and transformation, the healing and sacred arts, and soul-led living.
I became an ordained Priestess, and over the next several years, I shared my work in many different forms: as a teacher of sacred sexuality, an intuitive counselor, and a kirtan singer in a touring band.
after fully offering my life in prayer, to be guided to whatever way Spirit wanted me to serve in this world, I was quite unexpectedly guided to re-enter busy urban life and begin training in entrepreneurship and leadership.
Although at first I had a lot of hesitation about re-integrating with technology, I felt strongly guided to create content that could serve others through sharing the knowledge and tools I had discovered along the journey.
In 2017, I had the blessing of coming together with a collective of 13 visionary women leaders to produce a women’s empowerment program called: "Swan Sisters: Transmuting The Pain Into Beauty”. The series of interviews highlighted women’s journeys of spiritual awakening, their ‘dark nights of the soul’, and discovering how to bring forward the gifts of their most challenging times, to support others on the path of awakening and healing.
I continued doing deep healing work : personal, ancestral, familial, relational attachment repair, trauma integration, and nervous system regulation. Sometimes the work felt never-ending and deeply disheartening, other times I would see life-changing breakthroughs that left me feeling awe and wonder at the perfection of the Divine orchestration of it all.
Throughout these years I also followed my guidance to continue studying coaching, leadership and purpose-guided entrepreneurship with some of the brightest thought-leaders in the industry.
At this incredible time of planetary metamorphosis that we currently find ourselves in, I am honored to serve as a meditation teacher and mentor on several popular Apps including Insight Timer and Saged App, a guest speaker and teacher for several international coaching academies, a regular content creator on YouTube, Spotify and Soundcloud, and a transformational mentor and trauma integration guide.
I feel incredibly fortunate to live in the magical Diamante Valley of Costa Rica, with a beloved tribe of co-creators and soul family and work with groups both in person and online.
Thank you so much for taking this time to read about my journey and I look forward to staying connected with you!
